Liber CCXXXI Experiments
By Frater 414
1° = 10▫ A^ A^
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
The experiments with Liber CCXXXI began in April of 2003ev, six months after taking the Neophyte Oath. Once acquainted with the literal contents of this oft-times ignored Holy Book, oddities in the comparison chart are noticed. At first appearance, it seems the chart suggests a comparison to be made between the House of the Serpent and the House of the Qliphoth. The comparisons would then be made as follows:
Note that when making the comparisons between houses, one will be comparing all Domes of the Serpent, but not all of the Carcers of the Qliphoth. Many of the Carcer Genii would be compared to more than once. Specifically, Beth, Teth, Zain, Samekh, Peh, and Shin all would be compared twice, each time to a different Dome Genii. Yod, Lamed, Mem, Nun, Resh, and Tav of the Qliphoth would be left out altogether in the comparisons! What’s more interesting is the lack of outward similarities between the design of the sigils of the two houses, when compared in the above manner. The inner similarities between the two houses have yet to be determined, as the process of experimentation continues. As one dives deeper into this vast ocean of knowledge and self-discovery, there will be many levels of comparisons to be made. To assume that the comparison is merely based upon the Sigils themselves would be false. Though the similarities between the Sigils are of importance, there exist infinite layers of meaning to the visions. The nature of the vision itself, the nature of the Genii, the message of that Genii, the lesson learned, the feelings experienced, and the knowledge gained are but a mere few of the variety of comparison. Note also that just as the paths vary in degree of “density”, so also do the nature of the visions and their comparison.
Even at first glance, the similarities between the outward design of the sigils within the same house are evident. For instance, compare Aleph and Tzaddi of the Serpent. Obvious is the appearance of the Svastica, matter in motion, in both Sigils. The only difference is the direction of the svastica; one widdershins, the other deosil, respectively. Similar comparisons in the outward design of the sigils can be made between Shin and Teth, Resh and Zain, Kaph and Vav, and Tav and Beth, of the Serpent. In the Qliphotic Houses, obvious comparisons in outward design can be made between Beth and Gimel, Resh and Zain, and Yod and Teth. Intriguing as this is, these similarities are only the outward manifestations of the inner visions, a by-product, if you will, of the nature of the visions. Viewed in this way, and once the comparisons are made between the visions within each house, the appearance of the sigils will explain themselves. There will be no doubt why one sigil resembles the other.
The conclusions of this Aspirant are such that should broaden the experience and depth of thought of any who Dare to explore these Holy Sigils. Aside from the obvious outward similarities of the Sigils, it will be shown that the visions themselves, based on the Chart above, compare within each House separately, as well as between the two Houses jointly. The Field Notes of these Experiments, and the Comparisons that were made, can be studied in APPENDIX II of this document.
Following this essay in APPENDIX I, are the actual Magickal Diary records of Frater 414, a Neophyte of the A.’.A.’.. They are listed in the order given in the Holy Book, beginning with Aleph and ending with Tav, though this is not necessarily the order in which they have been explored. The first House is that of the Serpent, followed by the House of the Qliphoth, for without being familiar with the Light of the obverse side of the Universe, one cannot be properly prepared for the reverse side, the “Night” side. The first experiment, which prompted the examination of the Comparison Chart, was the exploration of the Dome of Tav, and the exploration of the Carcer of Beth. The readers can make the comparison for themselves based on the Diary notes for each Genii. The relationship of each vision to the others is of an intimate nature. It is the opinion of this Aspirant that the visions obtained when skrying these sigils will reveal clues to the nature of one’s Initiation. Speaking under the authority of Experience, the moments of AHA! will come frequently and intensely, depending upon the sincerity of the Aspiration, and, while there will be many similarities between one Aspirants vision and another’s, the experience will be one of the utmost privacy, piercing the thickest of clouds in the psychology of the Seer.
This Aspirant has formed His conclusions based upon actual comparisons of each vision. These comparisons can be found in APPENDIX II, where the primary symbols and themes have been extracted for quick comparison. Using the Comparison Chart in both manners described above, visions were compared between the House of the Serpent and the House of the Qliphoth, as well as between the visions within each house. This essay is intentionally not going to expound upon the subjective analysis made by this Aspirant in His Work, for these comparisons are extremely personal and would not be beneficial to the reader. The objective attributes of each Genii and related vision will, however, be note in the document addresses above. The reader is, however, encouraged to draw their own comparisons from the experiments displayed herein, based on the symbols present in each vision, and the nature of such visions. Even better still, the reader is encouraged to draw comparisons from their own experiments with this very complex and wonderful Holy Book. The order of visions transcribed here within is given in the order displayed in the Book itself. The verses of Liber CCXXXI are ordered such as to give a feeling of progression from Aleph to Tav, and read with the feel of an initiatory fairy tale, but the method of learning these lessons have been traditionally ordered in a manner of ascension, involution, or climbing upward, as opposed to descending downward, or evolution. It could very well be argued that the exploration of the Sigils should descend from Aleph to Tav, which would demonstrate an increasing degree of coarseness, or materialization of the Spirit into Matter. As a side note, it is not agreed upon by this Aspirant that the order of exploration assumes any particular importance, as the information obtained within the visions are independent of all others when viewed in regards to the level of consciousness of the magician experimenting (in Yesod). The literal interpretation of the lessons themselves pertain to the path of the Aspirant is His Quest for the Holy Gra’al, Binah, or Yea, even unto the Crown!
Generally, this Aspirant has discovered that the House of the Serpent typically Teaches lessons regarding specific Powers or Virtues. Note that the Word Virtue is used not to delineate any moral superiority, since such superiority most likely does not exist, but rather, to demonstrate actions or "active motion" of a nature in accordance with the Will of the Star, and even though this Will is not yet known in full to this Aspirant, the powers, skills, capacities, insights, and the Light taught by the Spirits of the Serpent are invaluable and Useful. Alternatively, the Genii of the Prison of the Qliphoth tend to present to the Explorer his or her Shadow Side. This Aspirant has found within these realms Lessons of the Vices, or Negative Tendencies; the Genii demonstrate "the Two and Twenty Basenesses" of the Aspirant, and teach his lessons about his or her own complexes and tendencies, but, more specifically, those elements of his or her nature that are detrimental to the Orbit. For example, the Genii of Beth of the Qliphoth teaches to beware of the Illusion of the False Will. The Genii of TAV of the Serpent gave the Key to the Tree of Life, and the exploration of the Self. The Genii of TAV of the Qliphoth warned against Rushing the Work and Idleness. If we were to ask Carl Jung, he would surely reply that the Sigils are nothing less than the symbols of one's personal unconscious; and, depending on the intensity of the Initiation, the symbols are the archetypal Treasures of the Collective Unconscious (cf. Thelemic Priming, by Frater 493). Essentially, Liber CCXXXI forms a skeletal outline of Initiation. The Experiments themselves, and the coagulation of the visions, create the flesh and physiological systems to that skeleton. This is obvious as we know that each Sigil of CCXXXI is associated with a Lesser Path on the Tree of Life, and given that each Path is dual in nature, we have 44 Sigils in all. The lessons of each Genii resonate the Nature of the Initiation. Oh how long and arduous the journey if the Aspirant proceeds with His or Her Initiation as instructed by the Genii! This is pertinent for the Neophyte, who takes the Oath to 'Obtain control of the Nature and Powers' of his or her own being, and is instructed in the Task of a Neophyte to apply him or herself to understand the nature of his or her Initiation. It is the opinion of this Neophyte, that the Genii of Liber CCXXXI will fulfill this element of the Task if the Aspirant will only Listen. At the time of reception of the visions, and most likely for a longer or shorter time afterward, the significance of the vision might not be apparent, but with later reflection, it will be found that the Genii have a greater knowledge and understanding of the psyche of the Aspirant, than the Aspirant himself.
The Spirits form the center of the phenomenon, itself an entity with equal relativity and relevance as that of ordinary, physical perception. The life-events that occur in the experimentation originate as a point in the mind, that part of which is considered the sub-conscious, and traverses a path in a specific direction and of an indifferent duration, thereafter returning to the Silence. Yet, with the sometimes fleeting experience, the affair is nonetheless imprinted upon the substance of the mind, and as with all impacting life-events, the mind has a tendency to project these into the ordinary perception of the Subject, reflecting the sensory perceptions themselves at times, but more importantly the innate corollary of the Lesson. The impressions received from the Astral plane are identical to impressions received on the Physical plane save for the variance in density, thus, each impression builds up the Magick Pantacle, and becomes an integral part of the psyche. This brings up the idea that the physical plane is identical with the astral plane. Indeed the physical plane is perceived by the astral, but that is an entirely different subject not to be debated here. Within the astral plane, there is scarce regard for time and space, excluding any special instances, and this certainty coupled with the lack of any overt triggers to the subconscious, effectuates spontaneous states of non-ordinary sentience. By this is meant that the Lessons of the Genii, as a separate phenomena, changed the thought process of the Subject at a time and location that seems to be frivolous. With research, these states can be associated definitively to the particular astral-event from which it stems. The struggle then, is to remain in these states of sentience for a prolonged period of time, but as soon as the Subject begins to think about the state itself, it diminishes instantly. Aside from being an interesting psychological study, these observations show the composition of the astral plane, as well as the organic nature of the science. The zeniths of the centers or chakras fluctuate as direct evidence of the alchemical process.
Love is the law, love under will.
DOMARUM MERCURII CUM SUIS GENIIS
Aleph
An. XCIX Sol in 13° Taurus
02/25/04 ev
Mercury 1702 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells and 'A Ka Dua'. Lit 5 candles; four at each quarter and one upon the altar. Performed the rituals XXV (Liber XXV, The Star Ruby), V (Liber V vel Reguli), and Fire Opal invoking Air. Verse 0 of 231 after invocation to IAO. 13 minutes in asana. Into astral temple. Created Sigil above altar. Pushed it. Nothing. Pushed again and nothing. Assumed HPK on Crocodile and pushed again. I am skimming over a body of water on the crocodile. I banish water and am now in the Air. God-form continues. I call to the Genii of Aleph. I see a green figure in the distance. It is the Fool. He is flying about performing aerobatics. I greet him and give him his sigil. He laughs very immature and child-like. Continues his air-dancing. I constrain him with his sigil. He is disappointed that he has to stop 'playing'. We fly down to a clearing of grass in a beautiful bright forest. We sit and talk. I assume the standard form of my Body of Light. I ask for a lesson. He explains the Fool as being, in a sense, Two. The Fool that indulges in Life without restraint, the ignorant one. Then there is the Fool, who, knowing his true nature, indulges in Life without restraint. (This suggests the 2=0 formula) I ask about Harpocrates. The Genii tells me that HPK is like a fetus in an egg. (From here on I have a separate vision corresponding to what the Genii says.) Soon the egg will hatch and the baby will grow and mature. (I 'see' HPK growing into Horus the Elder.) I ask if HPK is the subconscious. The Genii says that HPK controls the subconscious, or is master of it. As the Silent Self, HPK is Innocent- the 'things' he does that cause conflict in my consciousness are not intended out of malice. They are Willed, but not meant to harm me. He is a Child that needs to grow, i.e. more of the Self will become un-silent. More was said in that regard, but I cannot recall. Memory fails to explain the Lesson as it was taught by the Genii. He instructs me to listen to the Silent Self when it at times is not silent. Listen to the thoughts, feelings and perceptions that are not a result of my conscious intention. These are messages from my Silent Self. When asked how to proceed, the Genii replied that I must behave like the Fool! Not literally, of course, otherwise everyone would assume me insane and this would cause unnecessary dis-ease. For the next 5 minutes or so the Genii and I 'played' together in the forest. Great joy was felt and my physical body wanted to smile. I noted that during the lesson, my physical body became very solid, dense; like a rock. The Genii said this was the natural result of my Body of Light being in Pure Air.
Love is the law, love under will.
Beth
An. XCIX Sol in 24° Aquarius
02/13/04 ev
Venus 1650 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered, etc. XXV, V, Fire Opal invoking Mercury, and Liber Israfel. Verse 1 of 231. 10 minutes in asana. Into astral temple. Framed Sigil above altar. I drop straight down into a river. I swim to the bank where sits a small cottage. There is no door, no way in. I create one and place the Sigil on it. Inside is a ragged old woman. I ask where I am. she says this is her home. I ask if she is the Genii. She says, "Oh yes, yes. Sit down I will tell you a story." I test with the Sigil and she howls and disappears. And the house disappears too. I walk into a wooded area. A great Ape dark purple approaches. I assume the winged Helmet of Hermes and fly to greet him. I test with the Sigil and He is empowered.
414: Where are you going? (He was walking.)
B: No Where.
414: Then why walk. (I fly up to the Genii and am sitting on the palm of his upraised hand as he walks.)
B: There is nothing else to do but Go.
414: What is the lesson of this Path?
B: Do you know your will?
414: I do not.
B: Then its pointless to give you a lesson. Your will must be unified as one. I am not speaking of the Sphinx, but rather the Word, the Logos.
414: Knowledge of that seems so far off.
B: It is, but the process of discovery is what will build you up. You must make strong your chosen vehicle of incarnation. What am I before you.
414P: A purple ape. An intelligent ape.
B: Become that intelligent Ape. An ape is strong and mighty.
414: But you are not just an Ape, you are the Spirit of Beth. You are the all-powerful God of your Plane.
B: And so shall your Ape be in it's own plane. Neglect not your vehicle. Concentrate on your Tasks, but always share those fruits with your body as well.
I ask for another lesson. The ape becomes smaller, and leads me by the hand. Into a cave and he jumps into a tunnel- going straight down. I follow. At the bottom is a vast cavern. Against a wall is an old King, very close to death. He is chained to the wall. I learn that he is a spirit who is imprisoned in the center of the Earth. I understand this as a balance to the previous instruction. Indulge in the body, enjoy and exercise its functions, but be careful lest the spirit become entrapped therein. I thank both spirits and return to my physical body, which is waiting patiently in the Temple.
Love is the law, love under will.
Gimel
An. XCIX Sol in 24° Aquarius
02/13/04 ev
Venus 0651 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered, etc. as usual. XXV, V, Fire Opal for Luna. Verse 2 of 231. Asana for 13 minutes. Into astral temple. Framed Sigil of the Genii as a button above altar and pushed. A great wind came and swept away the Temple revealing a harsh desert. I see a camel in the distance. I approach and mount. we travel briefly. I see a crescent moon in the sky. I shoot an arrow from my Bow and the Moon falls the Earth. I go to it and remove the arrow. Moon greets me happily and says, Good Morning. I ask if it is the Genii. Moon says no but it can take me to Her. I pick Moon up and am about to mount Camel. Moon says there is an easier way. Moon becomes a small sailing ship. We take off and head for the actual moon. Moon says to me that he/she (Moon was a-sexual) is a decoy of sorts for Luna for people who like to shoot Her with Arrows. (Moon was teasing with this comment). We land on Luna and I see a stone castle. Moon says the Genii is there. I run towards the castle, but it does not get any closer. I am annoyed and ask Moon what is going on. Moon says the Genii is in the castle, but no one ever said I have to go there to meet Her. U understood and say down on the moon dust in asana. I close my eyes. I open them and I am in a dream. Clouds and purple haze are about me. I call to the Genii. She appears as the Genii from "I Dream of Genii". I ask about the camel and the Moon. She replies not to be concerned with those symbols.
G: My Sigil is the only one of importance here. It represents the male and the female interacting to produce life. But above is a veil, beyond that am I, who reconciles the duality into a unity. Beyond me is Nothing- Nuit. You could say that I am the Spirit of Manifestation of the Earth and Her Life.
In this way she resembled Babalon as being the Earth Goddess. When asked why the Moon is her symbol, she replies that Her nature is Dreams, uniting Conscious with Unconscious. In this sense she is not Babalon, but it is reminiscent of an aspect of Her. The Genii explains that most people are more whole in when they dream, because its only then that they unite with elements from the Unconscious. She instructs for me to take control of my dreams and use them to invoke Gods and Goddesses, evoke spirits and to travel in the astral. With the lesson over, she becomes seductive. We dance together very erotic in space. I thank Her and pinch myself to awake from my dream. I board Moon who takes me back to Camel, who takes me back to the Door to Assiah. The outfit of the Genii was Orange, which is the astral compliment of the Color Blue, the color of Gimel.
Love is the law, love under will.
Daleth
An. XCIX Sol in 22° Aquarius
02/11/04 ev
Mercury 0622 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV and V. Fire Opal invoking Venus. Inflamed invocation to Hathoor. Asana for 12 minutes. Into astral temple. Absorbed altar. Created Sigil of Dnastartarwth as a set of double doors. Opened outward and stepped into complete darkness. Looked to my left and saw the same door approaching me. It stopped before me. I opened it inwards into a country-side. A castle/fortress in the distance beyond a moat of water. Undines jumping therein. Thinking this is not right I banish with Pentagram. Moat became of Fire. Two spouts of Fire marked the entrance to a series of steps to the castle. I ascended and entered the doors, which had the Sigil of the Genii upon them. Inside is a large empty chamber, save for a throne in the center, upon which sat the Genii with the appearance of the Empress. I approach in adoration and asked if she was the Genii. "Indeed I am," she replied.
414: I am come seeking knowledge.
D: Then you have come to the right place. What is it you seek?
414: Love, Wisdom, Initiation, consummation with the Universe.
D: Well you must chose only one Door.
Now a series of doors appear lining the circumference of the chamber. They are black with white lines vaguely resembling the Sigil. I count 22 doors.
414: I must pick just one?
D: You can only follow one path.
I approach a door to the West (Directly behind me). I open and see scary creatures, very violent and threatening. I quickly shut the door. As I start to turn back to the Genii, I remember the power to Dare and I know this is a lesson. I enter the room and begin battling the creatures with a sword. Then with invoking Fire Pentagrams. I am triumphant. After defeating the monsters, the room began to come down from above. I was almost crushed when I assumed the form of a marble and rolled out. I go back to Her throne and thank Her for the lesson.
D: Go ahead, try another Door.
This door, to the North, is empty and in the shape of the letter Daleth. Numerous seductive women appear along the walls. They are all identical dressed in red. I think, how can I chose if they are all the same? It does not matter which I chose, as they are identical. I understand this and return to the Genii. I thank Her again and ask for another lesson.
D: What do you want to know? It's all here.
I head now for a door in the East. Inside is black space. A rocket of Fire comes from the sky and causes and explosion in the distance. A building crumbles next to me. A planet explodes, a star explodes. I also understand this and return back to the Genii. She tells me to go ahead and try another. In the South is scenes of a baby's birth, a birthday party, a family picnic. Then a dying old man in a hospital. Then scenes of death and decay, natural scenes of this nature. I exit this room and again return to the Genii. By now I am fatigued and cease exploring theses Doors. I thank Her again. She hugs me and we kiss passionately. I depart.
Love is the law, love under will.
Heh
An. XCIX Sol in 21° Aquarius
02/10/04 ev
Mars 648 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV, V. Fire Opal invoking Aquarius. Invoked IAO and verse 4 of 231. Changed HOO-OORW-IST 4 times and left 4 candles lit. Immediately into astral. I was at a window in an old country home. The Sigil was imprinted on the glass of the window. I opened the window and was whisked outside and into the air. Blue sky with a few clouds. I call to the Genii. A figure speeds by me through the air. I call again. A naked man stops in front of me- he had on the skin of an Eagle- like the headdress of a Native American. His eyes were white. I greeted Him and gave Him His Sigil. He accepted and thanked me. I asked why he was naked. Her replied that there is nothing concealed, nothing to hide. We fly to a river and swoop down. I see fish and mermaid creatures flapping against the rocks. I ask for a Lesson. The Genii told me that he likes to fly through the air and likes to give knowledge. He becomes an eagle and I am riding on his back. I ask the meaning of the Sigil. He discloses that the Pentagram is me. The circle divided in half was the dual nature of me. Mercury is there to transport knowledge. An Alchemical fire symbol is there as the "Method". "I" and "A" are Yod and Aleph, the Seed of the Fool. I ask for another lesson. We are in black space where the Genii creates an invisible pane of glass supported by two standing Lions. He tells me to walk through it. I cannot. It is very difficult to get through. He asks why I cannot pass through? "You are in your astral body right?". I will myself out of my astral body and become a large Eye with Wings. I can see my astral body down below like a robot that was turned off. I easily pass through the glass. I return to my astral body, greet the Genii goodbye, and return to my physical body. I recalled later that the Genii noticed that the lit candles in Assiah were distracting me. "Block out all distractions!"
Love is the law, love under will.
Vav
An. XCIX Sol in 6° Aquarius
01/26/04 ev
Luna 1816 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
XXV and V. Invocation to IAO. Verse 5 of 231. Chanted VUARETZA-- 5 times then into asana. Entered the Temple astrally. Invoked the Genii with the Sigil. I placed the Sigil into my breast. An invisible veil bearing the Sigil appears. I part the veil and pass through. Into the clearing of a great forest. A bull charged at me three times. I use the Sigil of Taurus to tame him and he becomes gentle. We lay together briefly. We then walk along the outer edge of the forest. I invoke the Genii to appear. Osiris rises and greets me. I test with the Sigil of the Genii. I ask if he is the Genii I seek. He states that he is one of the many forms in which the Genii manifests. The exact dialogue is not remembered completely as it took place very quickly. I commanded the Genii to explain and clarify as we conversed. He taught that my Earthy nature hinders and can poison the spirit. I am an animal and will perish but there is something that remains. I must strengthen the Will and invoke often. The emphasis was on the Will as the Key to this Path. I must unify the Will. I ask what the Secret name of the Genii is.
V: The Secret Name is YOU! It shall be divulged unto you by your angel.
414: Is the Angel the Hierophant?
V: No, (RHK) is.
414: What is the Key?
V: You know- You have all the keys within you! Put them together and use them!
I understood that the Secret Name is the essence of my true Will, of course I do not yet know my Angel. The Genii references LVX and IAO as explaining His nature. His appearance as Osiris explained well enough. Note he was Osiris Risen.
V: As the arrow pierces the rainbow, so shall the Nail pierce your Heart. You are very wise, but you are distracted.
414: But does not all life contain the essence?
V: Yes, but only man has the potential to understand and use it, to realize it.
414: What is the nature of the Path?
V: TO WILL!
VUARETZA-- was very adamant in His teaching. Very forceful and deliberate. I command Him to reveal his true Self. Osiris crumbles into dust and reveals a very tiny creature. I have to get on the ground to see Him.
V: The invisible point of life is all that remains without the outer form. It is the Will.
V: Tame yourself as you have tamed this Bull. Strive for inner unity. (He becomes again as Osiris Risen)
I thank the Genii and command Him to return to His abode. He vanishes and the Bull suddenly charges at me and kills me with His horns. I rise from the Body like steam into the air where I am captured by the light of the Sun. This is sustained briefly, then I create a door back to my physical vehicle. I arise and give Adoration unto Nuit, as done always.
Love is the law, love under will.
Zain
An. XCIX Sol in 1° Aquarius
01/21/04 ev
Mercury 1717 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells and recital. Bell, Oath and Confessions. Incense kindled. 7 knocks for value of Zain. Verse 6 of 231 and 7 chants of His name. In asana for 12 minutes. Quickly into astral temple. Placed the Sigil of Genii above me. Pressed with both hands and a blue current of electricity passed into me. My eyes closed. When I opened them I was alone in black space. A small brown creature bit at my ankles- I fired a Zain at it to get rid of it. Next an off-white cloud came down around me. I was in an airport hanger. A small single engine plane appears in front of me. I test with Air Pentagram and the plane gleamed and shone. I get into the plane and take off into the air. I speed into space but hit something. Out of the airplane I invoke the Genii. A man dressed like a King approaches me. I ask for his name; he says he is who I seek. I fire a Zain at him. It wounds him. I show the Sigil to him and he perishes into a hole in space. I now aggressively invoke Zoowasar. Two young boys, twins, joined at the midsection, appear and greet me. I test with Zain and the Sigil. They giggle and remain. By two large Parrots we are carried to a tree house high atop a tall tree. There the twins speak to me about my self, or "selves". They say that I am as they appear- immature and split in two. I have two (probably more) opposing wills. They demonstrate by cutting themselves apart with a sword that I could choose one or the other, but that would only further separate my will. I need to unify the will and understand it (K & C of HGA). I am confused by their answers and feel deceived. I test again and they are correct. I continue to question and they give the same answers. I am internally split in two and each one is a young boy, they must unite and become one. I must grow after uniting my split self. I thank them for the lesson and return to my physical body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Cheth
An. XCIX Sol in 18° Sagittarius
12/10/03 ev
Mercury 1827 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells and recital. XXV and V. Invocation to IAO and verse 7 of 231. In asana for 13 minutes. Canted aloud CHIVA-ABRAHADABRA-CADAXVIII seven times. Rose up astrally from asana and held talisman of Sigil above the altar. At first I was unsure what to do with it, then I passed it down over my body with my head through the center and brought it to the floor. In a black space, very vast. The Chariot Atu approached and stops before me. I examine it. It is silent and motionless. I put the weapons of the path into it with no change. Then the Sigil of Cancer and it radiates briefly a light. Then I take the card into my right hand and walk. I observe that I am walking on an invisible floor, like glass or ice. Deep below me I see a glowing ball of light. I am compelled to reach the light. I run above looking for a way down but find none. I begin hitting the floor with my fists. A white robed man 50 -60 years old floats toward me. He asks what I am doing, and chuckles at my explanation. I ask where I am.
C: No where. It doesn't matter where you are, but what you are doing.
414: I am trying to get to the light.
C: You cannot get there by trying to break the floor! Besides you are not strong enough to bust open this floor.
I test with Cancer and as the Sigil passes the Genii, it reveals the armored Charioteer of Atu VII. Once finished passing through, the Genii keeps the appearance of the old man. The Genii explains to me that strength is needed to attain the light, but not necessarily physical strength. I cannot get there by physical violence and brutality. Spiritual strength is required. Thinking I can just create an astral door to the light the Genii corrects me saying that the doors are already there, but need keys. I asked if the Sigil was a key.
C: Yes. The Sigil is a Microcosm, it consists of two pentagrams. One solid, the other fluid. The shadow side and the light side, harmoniously combined into a hexagram.
The Genii smokes a pipe as I use the Sigil to enter the floor. I reach the light. It explodes and I return to the Genii for another teaching.
C: You are not yet spiritually strong and mature enough to attain the (K & C of the HGA). Be patient, concentrate on your Tasks and when you are prepared, it shall be.
We are in nature by a lake. A lotus flower. The Genii explains that though the flower looks delicate it is very strong. He demonstrates this by destroying the flower with his hands and it rises immediately into perfect condition. Suddenly I realize that my astral body is that of a young boy. The Genii explains that spiritually I am a boy. More discourse then the Genii urges me to "GO!". I pill the Sigil back up from the ground over my head and I am back in Assiah and Malkuth.
Love is the law, love under will.
Teth
An. XCIX Sol in 27° Scorpio
11/20/03 ev
Jupiter 0628 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV and V. Invocation to IAO and verse 8 of 231. Chanted THALOSTER-A-DEKERVAL as I got into asana. 11 minutes total. Immediately the Sigil of the Genii appeared before me. I pressed it with both hands and I began bouncing around a black room like a basketball. Finally stopped and looked for a door. With the Sigil as a key, I unlock a door and exit this room. Outside was a hazy, white, clouded scene. Suddenly blackness comes from the above and covers the whiteness. I call to the genii. A fiery red-orange Beast approached. I test with Sigil and with Leo. He stops and obeys. I climb aboard and we travel through space. The Lust Atu. The woman riding the beast in the Atu asks my purpose. I tell her I seek the meaning of the Sigil. She says she will tell me by we have to go find a place to rest. This aroused my suspicion. I tested with all weapons and she and the card were destroyed. The Beast and I continue traveling. Now I am on the Earth. Under a tree is Sekhet. I test. She delights. She is very gentle and loving, yet definitely strong and ferocious. We discuss the Power of the Sphinx, to Dare. She tells me that I have this power to Dare, the Lust for the work. She uses a sunflower to symbolize the Sun. The Sun has much Lust. He burns unceasingly for no goal. There is no lust of result, only Lust for fulfilling his purpose. I must be like the sun and the Lion. There is a goal in my action, a purpose, but the Lust must stay ‘here and now’ as I work. She also knew of my plan to travel to southern California in the week to come. She quotes Liber AL, “But exceed! exceed! Strive ever to more!...(2;71+72) It is the Power of Works, the Lust and the eternal energy. It is Fire. It is Teth that balances Chesed and Geburah, two opposites. It is the Lion that firmly balances the Good and the Evil, the Active and the Passive. I must be the Lion, the Sun, lust with never-ending energy, with Fire, in all that I do. She disclosed more information such as this but it all happened to quickly I cannot recall every detail. I think her as Sekhet. She says that she is the Genii of the Path, but takes many forms. She becomes very aggressive and tells me to go. She becomes a lion and chases me. First I run, then realizing her lesson, I turn and fight her. She tears me easily with her claws and severs my neck with her teeth. This brings me back to my body. I rise and write this record.
Love is the law, love under will.
Yod
An. XCIX Sol in 26° Scorpio
11/19/03 ev
Mercury 0709 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
XXV and V. Invocation to IAO and verse 9 of 231. In asana for only 7 minutes. Quickly and easily into astral temple. Created sigil above the altar and as I chanted IEHUVAHASTANOTHATAN I became increasingly smaller, until I popped inward and began expanding inverted. I rubbed the lamp of the sigil and a great smoke appeared there from. it coalesced into a beautiful roman woman (Venus). I now was aware of being within a Roman upper-class home, or perhaps a temple to the Gods. Venus lay seductively on a bed and invited me to her. I tested with her sigil and her lust increased. I now transform into a sperm, and enter her vagina. therein I swim, looking for the ovum. note that I ejected from my astral body as an astral sperm. I find her egg and begin forcing my way inside. once I penetrate her egg, great electricity and I am now back in a body in outer space. a huge cloud of gas and dust is forming into a star. to my right is a red-robed figure using his hands as if by remote control, to construct the stars from our great distance. I test with his sigil and he roars. I ask why the red robes and he simply stares at me. I test again with his sigil and he fly's backward and returns a short time later. now he has a greenish yellow robe and is much shorter. I test again and apologize for doubting him. he tells me that my creative impulse gets lost and is wasted when I don't keep it under control. He spoke of masturbation as a symbol of the loss of creative energy. told me not to mix the planes and keep my sexual exploits out of my intellectual endeavors. I understood this. I must keep my creations un-profaned. We spoke of the hermit and how the hermit knows that one must withhold the creative impulse until the proper time for release. the wasted sperm creates nothing. I ask if that means one should really become a hermit. He says that this might conflict with Our Law. If I become a hermit and concentrated only on being creative, I would defile other aspects of my nature. in regards to the HGA- he is to become a supreme creative force and can govern the entire being. Don't let my creativity be profaned or get lost in the multitude. I thanked him and reverse the beginning process. I kissed Venus passionately and retuned to my body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Kaph
An. XCIX Sol in 9° Libra
10/13/03 ev
Saturn 0715 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells. XXV and V fair. Invocation of I-A-O and Verse 10 of 231. Preparing for asana as I chant musically KERUGUNAVIEL. 12 minutes is asana and this vision:
Astral body appeared before me in imagination. Armed with Kaph, Fortune Atu, and Jupiter sigil I transferred my consciousness to Astral Body. I then proceeded into astral temple. For some reason I pinned the Sigil of the Genii above the altar- with push pins. Then I took it down and drew it above the altar with the wand. Two winged beings, ugly faces but gentle, wearing white robes, carried me upwards. they released me in outer space. I tested previously with Kaphs and they were unscathed. Millions of stars around me. I admired their beauty. I see a large spiral galaxy in the distance. Purple and grey colors. As I watch it spin it changed briefly into a wheel and I knew that is where I must go. Closer I got when I was sucked into the spiral galaxy's center- as if a black hole. I now am on a dirt path near a large white palace. up a very long flight of stairs I approach the front door. I now am in the highest tower of the palace. An old man, yet young and strong, sits. He has white and violet robes. We greet with 93's. I test with His sigil and He stands up in His power. His white robes fall revealing glowing purple robes. I ask what I can learn from this path. He shows me a wheel on the top of His finger. I learn that the will is the axis of the wheel and must govern with the iron fist of Netzach and the fatherly love of Chesed. But be warned, this path is along the Pillar of Mercy and its vice is Weakness. I must choose what the spokes represent- they are all different tools or emanations of the will. KERUGUNAVIEL is that axis of the wheel. What ever are the spokes, the wheel will spin and I must be prepared to deal with whatever comes around next. I tell Him that I acknowledge that good and evil are governed and related by the wheel. He tells me I do not understand. He bids me fly with Him to see His land. We sit atop a huge, glorious brown and white Eagle. We see a lake of fire, then a lake of black. I ask their nature, but the Genii simply says, "In time, my boy, in time." He again tells me that I take in an unbalanced proportion of impressions, noticing more negative impressions than positive. I must strive to take in equal impressions of Light and Dark (Beauty, Ugliness, Good, Evil) This produces a great amount of satisfaction at the lesson learned. I then became the eagle and flew home.
Love is the law, love under will.
Lamed
An. XCIX Sol in 28° Virgo
10/13/03 ev
Mars 2156 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with ritual. XXV and V superb. I invoked IAO and Verse 11 of 231. Magickally chanted the name of the Genii, LUSANAHERANDRATON. My self standing in front of my body, I successfully transferred consciousness. Into astral Temple. I drew the Sigil of the Genii and invoked. I plucked the feather from the top of the Sigil and this released a great amount of smoke. Tobacco, I thought as I waved my hands to clear the air. This failing I inhaled deeply and blew clear the air by the force of my breath. Revolved once clockwise as I did this, invoking a forest. I walked forward over the dirt and noticed an odd figure to my right, a few paces ahead. I called to the Genii with no avail. Getting closer now, I notice it is a human, hunched over with a long blue rove. Not responding to my calls, I shoot a Lamed at the figure, causing its head to topple over. I brag the robe and pull, revealing three small grotesque beings stacked upon one another. With another Lamed they vanish. Disgruntled at my inability to locate the Genii, I sit upon a stone in the forest staring up to the night sky. Thinking to myself about the situation I rise up onto the night sky. I create a scale in air and remove my heart. I place my heart in the left weight-cup, and the feather I had before plucked from the sigil, in the right cup. The feather drops the scale as me heart is lighter. This successfully invokes the Genii, who appears behind the scale in tremendous glory. I test with Lamed and Her Atu. She is strikingly beautiful. She tells me to strive for Balance and Harmony. She says I have many years before my heart will be weighed. I am judged by my deeds and not in dearth, but in Life. She said the only Judge is Adonai. Questioning her, she says the Adonai is not the Heart nor the feather, but the scale itself. He is above good and evil, he is from Kether, Chockmah and Binah are the weight cups. He is the Judge, not the things judged. She demonstrates with orbs of power that equilibration opposites lead to unity. Two opposite things are really the same thing, No- Thing. I test her again with Libra and all is still right. She also explained that I must weigh each choice to ensure that it is correct. Deeds against the Will make the Heart heavy. We embraced and I departed.
Love is the law, love under will.
Mem
An. XCIX Sol in 20° h
10/13/03 ev Monday WRONG DATE!!!
Luna 2156 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with ritual. XXV and V extra-ordinary! Truly Beautiful and Exalting. invocation of IAO and reading of verse 12 of 231. Intoning Malai as I prepared for asana. A mere 7.5 minutes endured this vision. Into astral temple- which was empty space. An altar appeared. I was spinning with the altar as the axis. Finally stopped with an act of will. A distant sun shone before me. I traced the sigil of Malai above the altar. In toning his name and I was engulfed by a dark blue haze. I was unsure of its substance. Feeling my way though this haze my hands meet with many objects, as if the objects were coming towards me. Undines, I thought so I projected a few MEM's to clear the way. The haze remained so I yelled, "Apo Pantos Kaka Daimonos!" and all was clear. Again intoned His name and rose up, up past layers of different colors. Stopped at a great landscape. A rushing stream cuts through beside me. I jump in and ride the current. It takes me over a fall where I soar through the air and enter a dive into the sea of water. I surface and am met with a wooden raft. Upon this rackety boat I sit and again draw sigil and to invoke Malai. The sigil subtly becomes a figure hanging from a noose. I display a Mem and He dismounts and accompanies me on the raft. I am explained that I must bit be taken by the Water. I reply that the water is good, it cleans and nourishes and gives life. Malai explains that the water can turn into a flood and will take me whither it will if I have no control. He points out that my shabby raft has no sail, nor mast, nor rudder. The water will take me afar off course lest I maintain control. We leap from this raft onto the grey shore and walk. (The Genii at first was a small sea-green rag doll) Malai now is a wizard in deep blue robes and cap. Very tall and Beautiful. He is the master of all elemental water spirits. I ask what it is I must do. He tells me I have many keys, but which keys open which doors? He also instructs me to invoke the water elements and work with them- as I have begun to do with my work with Pyramidos. I praise the Genii for his wisdom and the consciousness slowly returns to the body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Nun
An. XCIX Sol in 8° Libra
09/30/03 ev Tuesday
Mars 2145 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells. XXV and V. Invocation to IAO and verse 13 of 231. Chanting name of the Genii (Nadimraphoroioz-o-thalai) while assuming asana. Sigil appeared immediately and no need for astral temple. Nevertheless I strengthened it by drawing it astrally- black on white background. Expanded it to large door. Opened, walked though, and closed the door. In outer space now. Created circle of blue-green and verbally invoked the Genii. I placed His sigil in the air within the circle. A figure appeared in the bear asana wearing the triangular shape as a hat. I commanded the spirit to awake! Arise! Show Thyself to Me! The spirit rose into the air and had blue eyes of lightening. Two blue lightening bolts hit me. Sensing this was an attack I traced invoking water pentagram and the spirit fled. [this is now figured to be an error on the part of the Skryer. The Genii, successfully invoked, attempts communication and is rejected.] Again I conjured the spirit of Nun. The circle was now a pool of water in space. I continued to invoke. From the water, OF the water, formed a being. He said in a watery voice that He is the genii I seek. I tested with His sigil and He let out a howl of delight. I asked Him the lesson of the path, and of His nature, and the relation of Him to Netzach and Tiphareth. He showed me my reflection in the water and said that this is only my outward form. He said that my being is infinitely ‘deep’ just as the oceans. I was instructed to see my reflection, them jump into the water and explore and observe what is there; i.e. within me. He said that one must experience a ‘spiritual death’ to awaken to the Holy Guardian Angel. When asked the nature of my Angel, He responded- Unfathomable. He explained His nature as Death, as the Atu- bringing Men through this ‘death’ to be reborn as God. He is the Scorpion, the Beetle, the Cactus, etc. as I know the symbols. I tested him again with Scorpio and he again howled with delight. I touched his body and was very interested. The genii then made a comment that fully satisfied my experience. Though my memory fails me somewhat, the comment was something similar to me being amazed at his being, not afraid, but rather curious. This meant that I have learned the nature of my reflection. Words fail to describe the conversation, or the gnosis felt while I was drawing my hand through the water which was the substance of the genii. The gnosis felt was not related to the sensation of His watery body, but rather of the insight He pointed out as I touched Him. In other words, me touching Him affirmed His statement about my reflection and the Body of Water. I thanked him and gave license to depart. The space filled with green-blue water and I found my way to the Temple.
Love is the law, love under will.
Samekh
An. XCIX Sol in 3° Libra
09/25/03 ev Thursday
Jupiter 2145 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells and recital. XXV and V inflamed. Invk. IAO. Verse 14 of 231. 14 minutes in asana. Created sigil inside a flaming square. Placed both hands thereon. Spinning clockwise and now in my temple. Drew the sigil of Sagittarius and I shot up vertically like an arrow. Into outer space. A pink-ish planet. Not correct I thought yet I went down to investigate. Pink and gray dirt. No life. A black creature like a worm suddenly ran into a small rock. I pulled him by the tail and he hissed at me. Annoyed I created a chariot of fire with white horses to take me back to space. I vehemently invoked the Genii: Sala…! Sala…! An arrow pierces me and I fall down…down. I land on an elastic white cloud. I get up and am enclosed by blue walls. A rush of flooding water swept me into a room wherein is the Genii. She is three-breasted, multicolored, one half dark the other light. Many colors. Not very attractive was She. She was behind a cauldron exactly like Atu 14. I ask what She is doing.
Sala: Cooking. (most of what She said was doubled.)
Skryer: Cooking what?
Sala: Your Soul!
A small dog nipped at my leg. She said his name was STRUF. I tested the Genii with Her Sigil and she relished in it. I get closer to her and she quickly stuffs me into the cauldron. I am aware of a great amount of steam. I blackout. A vision now of a beautiful country-side. Centaurs all about. Green grass, blue sky, and yellow sun. I used an invoking fire pentagram to return back to the Genii. She instructed me to unite opposites. For instance my Anger with Love or happiness. After a few moments I thanked her and left.
Another vision. Opened sigil like a door. Into a country-side as before. At the edge of the land was an ocean below, with fish jumping about. Strange thought I. Took a look around. Very tall green trees. The sun was bright and overhead. Suddenly an arrow plunges into the ground. Huge. Stretched upwards to the sun. I climbed and soon was at the top. My head was crowned with the Beauty of the sun. I looked down upon the Earth, and knew that the path is the link from the higher consciousness to my Khu. I melted into the warm embrace of Sol and was back in my body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Ayin
An. XCIX Sol in 28° Virgo
09/21/03 ev Sunday
Sol 2144 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells. XXV and V. Invocation to IAO. Read verse 15 of 231. In asana for 10.5 minutes sweating profusely. Into astral temple. Drew sigil of the Genii of the Serpent (Ayin) above the altar. It opened like a cupboard. Inside was a small vial of liquid. I drank and became dizzy. Fell through the floor into a dark landscape. Sky was night and dark mountains of stone. I walk about. A goat from the Devil Atu trots passed and I knew I was in the proper place. Verbally invoked the Genii. The moon was an eye in the sky. There were two. Sensing this was not right I tested with invoking earth pentagram. The sky slowly melted down around me revealing now a daytime landscape of colorless gray. This I understood as the light in extension and the darkness. Down by a rock was a small creature. He looked up at me and at first his face was a large open mouth with rows of sharp teeth. When it closed it revealed one large eye. The creature ran passed me instructing me to follow. With inv. e. pent. I tested and he responded with words, “Yes yes, follow me I will take you to him.” He ran down a path and up the stairs to the door of a large black, phallic structure. Inside was dark blue/black stone. A throne was between two statues of what looked like Anubis but could have been Set. Upon the throne was a skeleton/ decomposing corpse: with a crown and loose rags of clothes. With pent again I awaken the genii who then re-composed and greets me. He is very joyful. He asks me what he can do for me.
Seer: What is the nature of this path?
Genii: The order in the chaos.
S: I do not understand.
G: The meaning is in the black diamond. The black diamond retains the light within itself. Compared to a ‘white’ diamond that reflects the light creating the world. He instructed me that I am black as dirt obstructing the light and that I must cleanse the diamond. Then retain the light within myself. I will appear black because no light can escape. This brought to mind Liber LXV. The genii further explained my darkside and how it must be brought into the light. Satisfied by what we discussed (the Genii tossed me a black diamond as a talisman), I thanked him and returned home.
Love is the law, love under will.
Peh
An. XCIX Sol in 23° Virgo
09/16/03 ev Tuesday
Mars 2154 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells and recital. XXV and V absolutely beautiful! Sat for total of 8.5 minutes in asana after IAO invocation and verse 16 of 231. In astral, immediately constructed Sigil of the Genii of Pe. Pushed it like a button. The ground split open and I fell down. It was a fiery pit into which I plummeted. Around me was all fire. Banished with pentagram. Created sigil again and pushed. Spun around once and aware now of a landscape. Very red, rusty- very much like Mars. “This is more like it”, I thought. I attempted to invoke the genii with his Pentagram, planetary symbol and tarot trump. A second later, a tiny creature walks to me from my right. He turns to look at me. One huge eye in his forehead. “AYIN” I thought. I knelt down and asked his identity. He cockily asked who I was. I introduced myself as Frater 414. I placed a p on his bald head and he became a bit larger.
Genii: Now why did you do that?
Seer: To test you, of course.
G: Well do it again… it kinda tickled!
I placed another p on his head and he laughed then said:
G: Ok, enough. What is it you want?
S: I want to know the meaning of this path.
The genii led me to a cliff overlooking another barren landscape. Below are many soldiers fighting. The genii told me that there is a war going on. I said I know and he asked, “Do you?!”
S: Are you part of this war?
G: Indeed, I am the General.
I traced the invoking pentagram of fire and the genii became very large and covered in black-gray armor with sword and shield. He became very violent. I help up a p to his down-coming sword. He stopped, apologized and conversed unto me the chaotic passion of Netzach and the illogical intellicism of Hod. But balance is needed. He spoke again of the war and I knew this war was me against my sleep. My higher self conquering my lower self. A revelation of the nature of my initiation. He said to me, “You know!” and everything faded to black and I knew my journey was over. Sigil of Earth and awake.
Love is the law, love under will.
Tzaddi
An. XCIX Sol in 22° Virgo
09/15/03 ev Monday
Luna 2216 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells and recital of VII; I. Performed XXV and V. Felt a bit clumsy when I dropped my Wand after first spiral dance. Still, I felt supreme exaltation. The Temple ‘sparkled’. A neighbor was watching baseball very loudly and this was a test: would I stop the ritual or persist? I passed. Invoked IAO then read the verse of 231 for the 17th house of the serpent. Studied briefly the sigil. In asana for 11.5 minutes. Into astral temple. XXV. Drew sigil in air – it spun clockwise like a pinwheel. Soon I was drawn into its center and was traveling headfirst very fast through a tube or tunnel. Popped out into a black space. Invoked the genii with fire pentagrams stationed in each quarter. From the column descended a flood of fire – coalescing into the Emperor Atu. My eyesight was distorted as the Emperor is in profile. He kept saying, “Be On.” Annoyed I banished this and found myself in a field. I was a ram. Beautiful scarlet sunset. Another ram near me kept urging me to eat saying, “You need nourishment.” I continued looking around through this ram’s eyes and saw a human near the tree chopping wood. I walked to him, assumed human form, and asked if he was the Genii I sought.
Genii: I am. (Genii has an accent, Irish perhaps)
Seer: How do I know?
G: Test me if you like.
S: (Handing an Atu IV) Do you know this?
G: Oh! I haven’t seen one of these in years!
I tested with Fire Pentagram.
G: I herd these sheep. If I didn’t they would all run wild. You are similar, kid; you have many sheep inside you. You must herd them together, so they all move as one, they all follow You.
I understood exactly what the genii meant.
S: I understand. Why are you chopping wood?
G: Don’t ask me why! I just do, I work and I know the herd will be ok as I work.
I understood exactly as well. I thanked him and returned home.
Love is the law, love under will.
Qoph
An. XCIX Sol in 17° Virgo
09/09/03 ev Tuesday
Mars 0540 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Woke of 0430 hrs. Showered and robed with purification/ consecration spells. XXV and V very good…Recited VII;I. Invocation of IAO. Read verse 18 of 231. In asana for only 10 minutes. Immediately into astral temple. Drew sigil onto piece of white paper. Thought of burning it but that would be inappropriate. Instead I set it on my temple floor and jumped into it. I splashed into a vast ocean. Held my breath at first but then began breathing normally. I noted how the water felt going in and out of my lungs. I swam about looking for the Genii. I observed many fish swimming about. Water was very clear blue. A piranha attacked my arm. I touched it with a q and it calmly swam away. Lying sadly upon a very large flower was a mermaid. She had bright blue hair and shiny green legs/tail. I called to her. “Genii?” “Yes?” I handed her a q and she accepted it like a gift. Very grateful. She became happy. She jumped off of the flower and kissed me. She took me into her house which was dry, closed off from the water. I displayed a Moon Atu and said, “Tell me about this.” She took the card becoming extremely elated.
Q: Thank you! Thank you! I haven’t had my period in so long, because I didn’t have a moon. You know of the waxing and waning of the moon? The ebb and flow?
S: Yes, I know.
Q: Since you are a water sign, Cancer, yourself, it affects you greatly. Just as the moon pushes and pulls the ocean here where I live, it does the same to you!
The genii hands me a small bottle with dark red liquid inside.
Q: That is the last cycle I had before I lost the moon. I saved it. Please take it, since I have my moon back.
At this time, the genii was incorporating the new Moon Atu into the rest of her Tarot deck, as we sat on her bed.
S: What shall I do with it?
Q: I don’t know. Use it somehow. For, if you were on the moon, would it still affect you as it does on earth?
S: No, it would not.
Q: Then get to the moon. Consume that. Does not your Holy Book say to take the blood of the moon? Why not bake a cake?
Note that the Genii is very giddy and excited at my gifts. She is playful, almost childish.
S: I think I understand, thank you. What do you know of Netzach?
Q: Oh I’ve heard wonderful things about it, but I cannot go there. It is too hot. The earth is too dry, so I can’t go there either. But I am happy. I hear the men in Netzach are the most passionate lovers.
I thanked her again and exited her home. Picked up a pearl from a clam then returned to astral temple. Astral XXV then awake.
Love is the law, love under will.
Resh
An. XCIX Sol in 11° Virgo
09/03/03 ev Wednesday
Mercury 1805 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells and recital. XXV and V fair but with faint visualizations. Asana for 15 minutes. Entered astral temple. Constructed sigil of Mercury Genii of Resh. Opened it like a door. In outer space. No beings. Traveled to the sun. Nothing but fire. Banished with APO PANTOS KAKADAIMONOS as I do not yet know the correct pentagram. In space again walking a tightrope seemingly from Yesod to Hod. A being appears in a scarlet robe and hood. Tells me he knows what I seek. Tells me to follow. I touch him with a Resh and it burns. He tells me not to do that. I place the Resh on his chest and it burns him so that he shows his true form- ugly, gray and deformed. He runs down and under something. Next, a large quantity of white bones very tall comes out of an invisible floor. I walk through this forest of bones and meet a lion. He is friendly. I give him a Resh to eat and he now appears human-like, on two legs standing. I ask him about this path. He says the sun illuminates what is inside me. Reminds me that the path connecting Yesod with Hod- bringing my subconscious or my dreams into the light of reason. Using the Sun Atu as a reflective mirror- I reflect the light of the genii to the area around me. I see ugly, gruesome images. Death, suffering, decay, etc., for some reason I doubt the validity of the vision. I was not sure if I was speaking for him or if he was really speaking. I end the vision with sigil of earth and awake.
I again enter the spirit vision. The sigil is on a cloth that I wrap about my head. When I remove the mask, I am in a beautiful field with grass, trees, and hills. The sun is high. Underneath a tree, eating, is the lion. I approach and he growls at me. I give a Resh to eat, he transforms into a man in orange robe, with golden hair. He welcomes me back. We converse. He explains that what dies is reborn in that which devours it. As he eats the carcass it is reborn as his cells, blood, etc. Those thoughts, tendencies, habits that die in me are reborn within me. Again about Yesod, Hod and the illumination of the sun. I thank him and return.
Love is the law, love under will.
Shin
An. XCIX Sol in Cancer
07/24/03 ev Thursday
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with ritual and partial recitation. XXV and V spectacular. 11 min asana w/skry of 21st Mercury Genii. Created sigil as button, pushed with both hands. Nothing for a moment then dropped straight down. Into emptiness. Saw nothing. Flew for a bit looking for something. Finally saw something in the distance on a ‘floor’ I could not see. Orange in color. I stoop down and look and an orange-red worm-like creature bit my nose. Struggled to get it off and when I did I fired a “c” at it like a pistol. It disintegrated. Like a fool I looked into the hole it came from and stretched it out wide enough to fit myself through. Inside was a system of fiery caves like mines. Fire spewed around me, and little creatures working in chains. They were mining maybe coal- something dark. I had to slouch a bit because I was too tall. I left Aeon Atu as markers so I knew how to exit. I turned a corner and saw one creature strapped to a slab of rock with a doctor or surgeon standing- not one of the creatures- he was pale and dressed in a blue-white robe. I asked what he was doing as he held a hand saw to the creatures neck. He said, “He does not need his head.” Then he asked who I was and approached me with the saw. I took a few steps back trying to identify myself then fired a few Shin’s at him. He was defeated. The creature I freed, and as he ran away, another creature with a sword lopped off his head. As guards are now searching for me, I break through a door entering a room. A woman and a man- creature are in bed. The man instructs the woman to wait outside as I explain that the guards are looking for me and I need help. The man was a large being made entirety of a crimson colored rock. The walls to these caves are also crimson. He sits in a chair as I explain who I am and that I am here searching for the Mercury Genii that lives here. He laughs saying there is no genii. I ask him again. He tells me to “look deeper”. He punches a hand through a wall pulling out a map he hands to me. I say thank you and give him a Shin to hang over the hole. He is appreciative. Outside his room I open the map to reveal this:
[the map is such that one would see in a cartoon, with a dot titled, “You are here”, and an “X” at the bottom with a line connecting the two points.]
Not very helpful. I bust a hole in the floor but before descending I contemplate returning home- thinking that I had gained all I came for. I jump into the hole and land in a lake of fire. Speaking some magic word I levitate out of the water. I do this and am carrier off into the starry space by many winged fairies. I end in a bed with beautiful women and wonderful food and wine. Of heaven, not of earth. Here I [Earth Sigil] and exit.
Love is the law, love under will.
Tav
An. XCIX Sol in Aries
04/13/03 ev Sunday
Sol 2216 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed appropriately. XXV was very good, but V was doomed when my candle fell. Nevertheless, I sat for 30 in asana. Began with regulating the breath, then found myself visualizing the 22nd symbol of the Mercury Genii of 231. Before long, I opened the symbol as a set of double doors. It opened into a blue-gray hallway, which led to another door. I opened this (ah yes, stairs led up to the door) and beyond was nothing but wide-open sky with clouds and daylight. After thinking for a moment I jumped. The building was a tall tower. A flying carpet caught me. We flew up to a huge tree. I climbed onto the tree and was met by a black and yellow bird (a toucan perhaps). He asked why I was here. “Knowledge”. He replied, “Knowledge you seek, knowledge you shall receive.” “Knowledge in a tree?” I ask. Instantly I thought of the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Skeptical I showed him a “t” and asked if he knew it. He first said Aleph then Tav. More skeptical I showed him sigil of 22nd Mercury Genii and he shrieked and crumbled. I climbed ever higher until I saw an old wizard in gray-blue with gray beard. He said he knows me and what I seek. I tested with sigil and he was very easy and comfortable. He said he kept order over the land, but was getting old and tired. (Saturn?) He gave me a coin that he called a key. Told me if used correctly, I would find what I seek. Confused, I jump from the tree. Hit the ground. Looked around for a way to use the coin. Insert into a door? No. give to a beggar-child? No. I looked at the coin and on one side is a pleasant face, the other an evil face. Instantly I knew. I planted the key in the dirt under the tree. The sigil appeared as a large banner and wrapped around the trunk of the tree. The tree suddenly bore fruit. I plucked an apple and then a snake entwined around my right arm. The apple in his mouth, the snake entered my mouth and disappeared into my body. The tree turned to gold and I took a nap underneath. Awoke, sigil of earth and back home.
Love is the law, love under will.
Aleph
An. C Sol in 10° Aries
03/30/04 ev Tuesday
Mars 1830 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells and 'A Ka Dua'. XXV, V, Greater Fire Opal Invoking Air. Verse 0 of 231 and no vibration of the name AMPRODIAS. 4.5 minutes in asana. Into astral temple. Invoked the genii with the sigil. I was violently tossed around to room by unseen forces. I float in air and invoke again. Now I am in a landscape similar to the drawing by AC. The Buddha-like figure is to the right. I ask if he is the genii. He says yes but when I show the sigil he cowers. I rise a bit into the air and invoke again. A yellow lightening bolt shoots past me into the ground. I must remark that this landscape was totally devoid of color. A face very faint appears in the sky. I give the sigil. Amprodias greets me very sternly and serious. I ask for knowledge of this path.
A: Only in Silence can any knowledge be gained. But you cannot know anything about the Supernals as you have yet to cross the Abyss. In time you shall, out of time you also shall.
414: Appear unto me!
Amprodias appears as a human figure but with no distinct features- only swirling air.
414: You are pure air, yet you partake of earth before me?
A: In order for you to perceive, pure air cannot be seen. Air is the thoughts, yet it is also a giver of life, a sustainer, but it can choke you to death.
Apparently the genii thought I had had enough schooling and encouraged me to be the Fool- lust- enjoy my trip with vigor for life. He joyously tossed me into the air and I rejoiced.
I return to my physical body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Beth
An. XCIX Sol in 1° Virgo
08/24/03 ev Sunday
Sol 1058 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with spells. XXV and V. Recitation of VII; I. Tarot invocation of IAO. Invocation of Baratchial. His name as mantra. Visualized sigil. In asana, continued the same astrally. Entered Temple. Sigil carved on Pantacle. More mantra then I found myself being gently set down on some landscape. Felt the dirt under my feet as I walked toward the forest. My shoes grew wings accelerating me forwards, reminding me of Hermes. The tree tops formed an arrow pointing to the center. I had the idea to throw the Pantacle into the forest as a Frisbee. I did and it returned with a very small gray being on top of it. It was a baby, a gargoyle, I assume. I was surprised it worked. I pulled some Beth’s from my robe and fed to the creature. It grew a little. Now I cradled it in my arm as I looked for some place to sit. A house. I knocked . A woman answered and swore that the gargoyle was her baby. I tested with a Beth and she crumbled. The house became a prison. Baratchial, now older from eating the Beth’s, used His sigil, to banish the prison. It became a golden castle. We were seated upon the throne. I ask, “Where is this place?” He laughed saying that it is within me. I asked the meaning of the path f Beth. He said the will is one, and must move forward. Some beings approached very angrily, I banished with “APO PANTOS KAKADAIMONOS” we were back in the forest. I held Baratchial and asked again for information. He said the will starts small but will grow. Just as he was fed and grew, so will the will. I asked his age- he said he has no age- he is born lives, dies, and is born again. He said the will is the same way. “But the will is one?”
Baratchial: True, but what grows eventually dies. It will grow stronger with the right food. What you possess is in you. You must learn how to give it.
Seer: So the will is in me, and I must let it out?
B: Exactly, you see that castle? There lives the king, his will would never be known or be worth anything unless I was here to move it.
B: Be careful of illusion. Though your will comes from you, illusion can hide it and change it.
S: Is that the message of the Qliphoth?
B: Yes, you can live in the illusion of your will. Beware.
I thanked him for his time. He said ‘no problem’ as he has much time. That is his job, he’s a messenger. Baratchial was very happy and playful. Always smiling. He vanishes after I give permission to depart. I create the sigil of earth and return to astral temple. Reabsorb and awake.
Love is the law, love under will.
Gimel
An. C Sol in 9° Aries
03/29/04 ev Monday
Luna 1915 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV, V, Greater Fire Opal invoking Luna. Verse 2 of 231. 4.5 minutes in asana. The sigil of GARGOPHIAS appeared before me. I was in a dark landscape, and open terrain of dirt. It was night. I looked down and was standing on a black circle. the circle shot out of the ground as a rod, with me standing on top. Very high did I rise. Into a blackness. Suddenly the stars and constellations all turn on as if by a light switch. The sigil appears above and in front. In an airy voice it asks, "Who are you?". I give my identification as 414, Neophyte of the A.'.A.'., with Grade Sign. I improvise an invocation to the genii. The black rod becomes a snake and takes my right leg into its mouth. I touch it with a Gimel and it recedes. I float in space and invoke again. The dome of the sky turns solid blue, as if painted on. I try to go beyond the blue but I cannot, I am enclosed here. A ghastly spirit attacks, I banish with the Sigil and a Luna. I look down and see a vast black abyss. I dive downwards past flaming creatures. Someone grabs my right arm and pulls me into a crescent-shaped boat. A figure, dark clothing, white face with odd tentacles flailing from the face. He asks why I want to go down there.
414: To explore.
G: But you may never be able to climb back out. You might not know how. (pun)
414: Are you the genii I seek?
G: No, I am not.
I begin to leave then realize it is a test. I give the spirit the Sigil of Gargophias and he delights. As he rows this canoe, he explains that this place is not all that is [or is not], but a veil. I learn that Nuit veils Herself to reveal Isis (or Babalon). All that we perceive is a veil of Nuit, take way those, and Nothing is left. So profound was this that I did not need further exploration. The veil is placed at the abyss, beyond that veil the truth is revealed. All objects are veils upon Nuit.
Love is the law, love under will.
Daleth
An. C Sol in 6° Aries
03/26/04 ev Friday
Venus 0704 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells and recital of VII;I. Rituals as usual: XXV, V, Greater Fire Opal (Invoking Venus). Sandalwood incense. Verse 3 of 231 invoking DAGDAGIEL, the Genii of the Qliphoth of Daleth. Into astral temple. Took a moment to actually look around the temple. A chair was to the left with something on the floor next to it. A small piece. I shall return to examine closer another time. In asana for a total of 9 minutes. Drew sigil upon an emerald background. Opened as a door. I drop down one or two stories. A dark cellar with dripping water. I won't find the genii here, I though to myself. I raise myself upward, breaking the ceiling. Darkness. Again, and darkness again. I stop and project the Empress Atu, the letter Daleth, and the Sigil of the Genii. I improvise an invocation. A woman appears in royal robes of turquoise. An odd crown rests on her head, it resembled the triple flame of my wand as a spiral, but what an off-white color. He skin was milky white. She had dark hair and was beautiful. She walks from the left to the right, then back again, looking at me oddly.
D: Who art thou who hath disturbed me?
414: (With 1=10) I am Frater 414, a Neophyte in the Ordo A.'.A.'..
D: And why have you come?
414: To give adoration unto Thee, my Lady!
D: I do not need your adorations! Look about you, all is my adoration.
She reveals all around us lush fields of grass, trees, water, blue sky, bright sun, and frolicking animals. I understood this.
414: Well I seek to converse with thee and learn of this Path.
D: You know of this path already. I am of Venus, and thou knowest love. I am the force that brings Chockmah and Binah together, the seduction of those opposites.
414: But you dwelleth in the Tunnel, you are the Chaste Woman, who manipulates and prevents the union of these opposites.
We discoursed for a time about her placement on the tree of life. Chockmah and Binah are the opposites that must unite through Love, the Empress, Venus, but in the Tunnel, the Empress manipulates both for her benefit, which prevents the flow of the Will, which is to unite by Love.
D: (becoming ferocious) You had better go, or you will be surely torn to bits!
I enlarge my body to a massive size.
414: By you? I seek not conflict, but knowledge. Do not threaten me or I will have to take action. I see your nature as Venus and I acknowledge your lesson, but you must obey my Will or be banished.
Dagdagiel resumes her royalty and I mine. We speak again briefly then I kiss her and depart.
Love is the law, love under will.
Heh
An. C Sol in 5° Aries
03/25/04 ev Thursday
Jupiter 0643 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV, V, Greater Fire Opal invoking Aquarius. Verse 17 of 231 corresponding to Heh. 8 minutes in asana. The sigil appeared above and to the left. I found myself in a dark, grey-blue structure of stone. Murky water ran at my feet. The sigil was one of two that were on a wall, above a mouth of rushing water. I look around me. The only way to go is down a dark corridor. I am armed with the censer and repeating the name of the genii, HEMETHTERITH. Suddenly I am whisked about by a current of air and flung up into the sky. Two winged babies take me by each arm and set me down upon a cloud. I notice I have large, beautifully feathered wings. Now appears a woman in turquoise throned on a cloud. She pours a large cup of liquid over her head and delights therein. I give her a letter HEH and we greet. I ask, as always, for some knowledge of this path.
H: You never speak.
414: that is not true, I do speak.
H: You talk, yes, but you do not speak. When you talk, talk with authority, and say something worth listening to; cut out all the bullshit and horseplay.
I understood perfectly what the Genii is instructing me to do.
She pours another bottle over her head and delights therein.
H: This is not liquid; it is light!
I ask if I can delight therein as she. The genii pours a bottle of light over me and I delight therein. I swallow some of the light.
H: No! You don't want to digest it!
(The genii laughs at my folly.)
I see my stomach through my robes becoming very illuminated from the inside.
The genii now appears as Nefertiti, with gold crown and purple eyes. Above me and the genii is the night sky. I literally see the body of Nuit, infinitely, throughout the sky above. I fail to describe this indescribable event in the vision. I could almost touch her, yet Nuit was continuous and infinite. I understand that She is the infinite container of All.
HEMETHTERITH gives me a pentagram and explains that She brings energy from Chockmah to Tiphareth and the pentagram is a key.
I thank the genii for the lesson and I depart, in awe and adoration to Nuit.
A final lesson from H.: "Shut up and Listen!"
Love is the law, love under will.
Vav
An. XCIX Sol in 8° Aquarius
01/28/04 ev
Mercury 0630 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV and V and Invocation to IAO. Verse 5 of 231. Chanted five times the name URIENS- the Genii of the 5th Prison of the Qliphoth. Sat for 13 minutes in asana. Transferred consciousness to astral body and ascended to astral temple. Created an elevator door with the Sigil of the Genii. Descended in the elevator. The doors open to a very dark, dreary land, with corpses and body parts covering the ground. I float above the bodies calling to URIENS,. I see two bull's heads on spikes acting as pillars on either side of the entrance way to an odd shaped structure. It looked as if it were melting. Stairs led to a point above about 50-100 feet, and it just ended. I stood looking at the structure and with the Sigil raised I called to the Genii. The structure crumbled. I stand among the ruins and again call to the Genii. A sarcophagus rises from the rubble. I invoke with the Sigil. The sarcophagus transforms into an Egyptian man wearing the crowns of the Upper and Lower Kingdoms. Osiris again but a bit sinister and with a fiery orange glow. I ask Him where is this place I am at. In this communication there was less words spoken and more psychic interaction. URIENS explained that this is a prison of the Earth. Matter has enslaved the spirits of Man. I look around the landscape again and see caged on both sides filled with agonized men and women. I reply that the Earth does not imprison us and that we are here to enjoy Her and experience being alive. But so long as we remain a slave to our senses and to the Earth, it imprisons us, the Genii replied. A great Nail falls from above and is implanted into the ground. The spiritual seed has been planted into the Earth and risks dying or becoming stagnant if I do not realize this Spiritual Seed. Only once the spirit is free can I enjoy the Earth. URIENS accuses me of being arrogant and lazy. Taurus is the Bull, I am not. I reply that I am the Bull. URIENS again said that I am weak when it comes to Matter. I am enslaved to it. I understood and reluctantly agreed. URIENS begins to walk away. I constrain Him with an averse invoking Pentagram of Earth and demand a key. He said the Sigil, inverted is a key, just as the Pentagram I am wielding is a key. I understood the great lesson of the Genii and bid Him farewell. I returned to my Body.
Love is the law, love under will.
Zain
An. C Sol in 3° Aries
03/23/04 ev Tuesday
Mars 1058 hrs.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Showered and robed with Spells. XXV, V, and Greater Fire Opal invoking Gemini. 8 minutes in asana. Verse 6 of 231. Chanted 6 times ZAMRADIEL. Into astral temple. Created sigil as a double door. Entered to a bright landscape with a Sun on my left and a Moon on my right- very dry and hot, the ground was dried and cracked like mud. A frog-like creature hops over- I test with Gemini and it burns it, the creature runs away. I see a penguin. I feed it the sigil of Gemini. It follows me as I walk. "How cute," I think. I continue to walk around. I call to the genii. He appears to me as two young naked boys. The one on the left was black, the right was white. They spoke sometimes in unison, sometimes alternating. This produced quite a hypnotic effect. They repeated LXV regarding the 'black and the white and the knowledge of their equivalence.' The boys tell me that only in Binah can the knowledge of the equivalences of opposites be understood, yet I seek that knowledge anyway. they take turns quickly giving examples of opposites: Love/Hate = Emotional opposites; Black/white = color; logical/illogical = thought; in/out and up/down = position and the center thereof. They instruct me to use the sword (knife) to split impressions into opposites and analyze each half, then reunite into a perfect impression. I remark that it is easier said than done. I practice a bit with examples of work, my friends, my Will. I understand, yet I do not understand. I can, yet I can not. I will, yet I will not. I know, yet I do not know. Knowing (pun) that I have received a valuable lesson, I split the sigil into two and give each opposite of the genii a half. They consume and turn away from me and walk. As they walk away, their respective colors switch, then switch back, then blend together to grey, then back to black and white then to grey again. Finally to a rainbow and they are gone in a bright light.
Sign of Silence and I am back with my physical body.
Love is the law, love under will.